For quite a while, I've been listening to Citizen Soldier. Un-be-lie-vab-ly powerful songs, powerful lyrics, to keep me going while jogging or simply making it through my days. And this one works for me every time after my weekly therapy.
Right now I'm obsessed to this:
Lyrics are very important for me in music so I'm citing the most powerful parts in the spoiler
I cannot close my eyes
I cannot fall asleep
Suffocating in doubt, all night face-down
Drowning in this memory
As I lay me down to sleep
I pray the memories won't find me
Hit the bottle, hit the pills, trying anything
Just to forget what you did to me
Won't tell my friends, won't tell my shrink
Yeah, maybe I should say something
I'm terrified you'll put the blame on me
So I live with the ghost, keep it buried deep
Face-down as I drown in this memory
My past is taking over me
The more I fight it, it just won't let go
I cannot close my eyes
I cannot fall asleep
Suffocating in doubt, all night face-down
Drowning in this memory
It has me paralyzed
It's always haunting me
And no believes me 'cause no one can see it
Might kill me to keep it
It's my little secret
And this is my personal fave
Have you ever felt lost
Like you don't matter at all
Like you were born just to be scared
All this fear deep inside
Does it burn to the surface leaving you gasping for air
Now you're walking alone
It's all that you've ever known
So sick of being the one betrayed
If you just take one more chance if you just
Open your eyes you'll find the purpose in your pain
Oh I know
There is purpose in your pain
Do you feel already dead
Like you have no reasons left standing on the edge
And finally looking down
Like a candle in the night
Fighting just to stay alive
I know you still can't see
But hold onto me
You will be found
Citizen Soldier: Hope It Haunts You.
Makes me speed up while jogging. Today it serves me well as a post-rant song after therapy.
As always, lyrics are important for me.
I let you in so deep
Can't get you out
I'm seeing red
I can't forgive
I can't forget
You're always in my head
You stole my sanity
I'll never be the same
I hope it haunts you
I hope it haunts you
Someday you'll face the truth
When karma comes for you
I hope it haunts you
I hope it haunts you
No problem for me to listen to this like 5 times in a row thinking about this sick ****er I refuse to call a human being anymore. Releasing the pressure with music and running gets me back to normal state by tomorrow, as always.
This site uses cookies to help personalise content, tailor your experience and to keep you logged in if you register.
By continuing to use this site, you are consenting to our use of cookies.